State of the Union

Hi

for what will be 4 weeks next Tuesday I will have been off work ill

Cellulitus in my left leg (opposite to the last time so at least matching scars) had to rest leg and take antibiotics for 4 weeks which have messed me up somewhat

I have however had plenty of time to think

(I know I've started threads like this before and I will understand if people tune out)

My life is going nowhere, I am not a stupid man but I am sometimes weak and that has hurt me in the past and its past time I changed that

(this next bit was gong to be a rambling history of my issues with family and one member in particular but I am really bored with that trainwreck these days so moving on)

So issues

I have 3 RPGs a week - this may be too many there are other games and activities I want to have a go at that only having 4 non RPG days a week gets in the way of so I have to address that at some point

I am going to be running a massive Pathfinder dungeon at some point and after that it's going to have to be DND ( but I can get plenty of ideas and material from Pathfinder adventures and stuff)

I want to run a massive Call of Cthulhu Campaign

Bought DND Attack wing (which amazingly uses the same system as X Wing and Star Trek Attack Wing uses) loads of Dragons and the like so bulking out figure collection

also bought new Army Painter set so I can start on the mountain of figures that need painting

have an idea about how to reformat the flat so It's less ... what it is right now

my health needs attention

I need some 'expansion' in my life

I've been single for 23 years because I ignored Rob's advice about someone I shouldn't have got involved with - she messed me up and damaged my trust in people which I have let hold me back

I want to travel

I want to do so many things  that I don't and I have never been entirely sure why

so new plan is to run at everything and try not to over think things

to quote Stephen King (who pinched it from Reinhold Niebuh)

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change

The strength to change the things I can

And the good luck not to fuck up to offten

J

new Monday tomorrow

new start of the week and a new plan
new attempt on diet/excercise
starting to get reorganised and write a campaign I can be proud of

got the setting (with a little alteration or two), got the system (same) got the time

And here we go

Almost sold my Laptop at the weekend as I'd not used it for what I wanted to
would have got £50 less than I paid for it which aint bad

then I changed my mind 

problem Ive got is that now I'm bouncing between Pathfinder games and a WOD game as a player I get inspired to write for one of those systems so keep changing 3 times a week

but now I hear/feel The Orient Express calling, I have Cubicle 7's London box set on it's way

The Laptop is going to be a centre for all I use for the reffing - music, images video and rules

Starting with Call of Cthulhu

Tomorrow I buy a new wireless printer and set it up - and I can start work

Also plan on writing some fiction as well of a Cthulhu type nature

J

Could I?

A while ago a good friend of mine who I'd been talking to about me writing something other than RPG's (she is a published writer which makes 2 I know) and that evening she challenged me to write something there and then (through facebook)

I sat and thought and wrote a short (very) story about a detective (UK) who stumbled into a conspiracy involving faustian deals, police corruption, murder and evil

I could have continued with it but realised that I need to commit to that kind of thing and with all the other stuff I felt I had going on in my life (not important stuff just stuff that took up time) so I couldn't continue and do it justice

now I have different priorities - the RPGing isn't as important as it was a few years ago and I've been branching out into games that don't require as much effort really

Card Games, board games etc

besides I have often thought about writing stuff in Star Trek or Doctor Who

I really enjoy reading Star Trek Novels (Guilty secret I read William Shatners the Return all the way through in one go years ago and that book holds the distinction of being the only book I have ever read twice back to back)

the consistent advice I have seen online and in some books on the subject is if you want to write then you must read vast amounts - which is nice

so hitting the Star Trek Novels re reading Destiny and going on from  there and scribbling any ideas I have down


lets see how this goes

J

Okay this is the plan

I now have a long term plan (for reffing and perhaps a life plan)

game plan

Rappan Athuk (Pathfinder) starts in the next 2 sessions at my place
Will be reading up on 5th edition and working on a Forgotten Realms campaign for that
The One Ring (RPG for Middle Earth) turns up soon and will be picking at that slowly creating campaign

now Rappan as myself and Rob are taking turns over time reffing may take the rest of my natural to run but the other games I have knocking about in my head will get down on paper

(theres always the cthulhu and wod stuff as well but I'm giving up on trying to corral these things)
Steve went through this years ago when I shared a flat with him and Debs - there were pads everywhere with notes for tons of games on them (now I understand why)

so tons of reading and loads of work (looking forward to this)

Life thing

If I get into Tolkien to the extent planned then I'm going to re examine the creative writing OU course (with a history element)

Theres an online course with an outfit called Mythgard where you an study for a degree in 'Tolkien' (some other fantasy based stuff as well)

Nice

update

yesterdays post deleted cause it serves no purpose

I know what I'm doing next

just gonna do it and see what happens

J

well

started the Nasal irrigation on Monday
worked like a charm
I'm still vulnerable to stuff that triggers allergies sudden drop in temperature today

but generally much much better
I'm thinking more clearly my sense of smell is coming back (and taste)
concentration is better

so how much better I get will have to wait and see

but it brings me to a point

my home is a tip
my health is crap
money's okay

work is ...... not something I'm allowed to discuss on social media ... which tells you something about work

anyway I want to spend some serious time exploiting the fact I feel better and fix things so tonight is effectively my last night of pure freedom - because tomorrow I start to Fix things

I may need help with this but since I don't know whats going to happen I can't say for sure

this weekend cleaning the flat (ongoing)
next weekend me Rob, Mark and Langley playing Magic then beer

it's a start

J